A Turnover...!!!!!!

2011-09-13T07:49:00.000-07:00

Looking back from this my 20^th year,it seems to me thatevery card in my life has been dealt by me in such a manner , that no mattershow much stipulating the situation of game has remained,I never tried to win agame that would hurt others...But if they have lost somehow,i always have tried to recompense them by using some encouraging words...It is notbecause I feel pacifying doing this..though it may be,but more precisely it is in my nature... Itis the effulgence of my character,whichmakes me different from my other counterparts...

But a recent incident struckmy perceptions and quiet hard..It squeezed me like anything..although Iovercame it gradually,but it left scars in the form of certain irasciblequestions...The prominient among them was,”why my nature is so different fromothers”....I have always tried to cultivate good thoughts in my mind and percieve the same..M y parents havealways intended me to respect other’s feelings,and to be good to them...I neverproclaimed that why I should be so loyal and good to other’s ,while theythemselves are not returning the same...But yeah whenever these type ofquestions came in my mind,i found the answers very nearer to me...The trees around me are not costingany pelf for their fruits,their flowers,their fragrnace then whyshould I??? All of us do enjoy ourhappiness, but the person who feels happy by making other people smile,is an imperative and a real bench-mark...I will not say I wasamongst them,but I always tried to be like that...

But this isjust one side of the coin..the other side is full of my complexion nature...Atype which is difficult to understand and equally humiliating...I cant writemuch over that,but still i can make outsome points in brief ..I have been imparted with a very light and sensitive heart..I readily get hurt for thesmall fashy reasons ,which may sounds awkward to many...But its a hard truth about me..Still those reasons are notequally pleasing for me..I get hurt from the people because I expect muchfrom them..Failing to do so, generate faughy feelings inside me...Istart manifesting marsh thoughtsmyself ,that I am wasting my time for aperson, for whom, my presence in his/her life holds no paramountal importance.. .These all add upto my pessimistic nature..and what it ended with , is a complicatedsentimental self...

A few days back,when I was strolling through the streets of the campus at night,I observed,something realistic, something fascinating and something peculiar..The moon has a lot of big craters on its surface,which we can easilypoint out from here,but people still reffer it to the symbol of beauty,this was realisticand fascinating ...But the peculiar point was, why do we neglect it’s ugliness(not exactly) andjust enjoy it’s felicitous beauty .The reason is very simple..We cannot judge the beauty of a person just on his/herlooks... Wish everyone in this world have preached this thought..

But a recent experience white washed my this thought too....Even youcan’t judge a person on his/her nature...People will be so good to you that youwill feel ,you are so worthy to them.But believe me this your biggest folly..They are behaving in such fashion because they need someone for their timepass...If you try to make them smile,thenyou are just an entertainer to them,if you teachthem some good thoughts,you becomephilosopher,and if you mark some valuable advices to them,your position turns to an advisor...But between, there is no sign of a good friend or a good colleague or a good partner...This is whatlife is...You will try everything to built a special identity of your’s in their life,but you dont know,someday they will come up with a hasty comment,”you are as special as anybodyin my life...”And when the winds change their drift,and you become aware of thereality ,you find youself as the biggest loser...Then the only thing which will addressyour mind is,”they saw my face,butforgot to look into my heart, i looked into their heart so i could’ntforget their faces..” This line isenough to depict the situation...

But yes it is just begining of my life .I have come up with some revealing experiences,which are surely going toboost up my life further.Atleast from now I will take extreme care whilejudging peoples... My perceptions for the life has changed now..I m feelingmore comfortable and free than i wasbefore.Atleast now those people can’t say that they were just doing me a favourwhile talking with me.. But still I m sure,at certain stake of their life,those personalities themselves will taste the reality....:O

.In a nutshell I m happy to have this turnover..........................................:)

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A Turnover....!!!!!!

A Turnover...!!!!!!